As we compete together today Lord, we pray that we will remain positive and support one another. Remind us that coming in first place is the least important type of winning. Non-believers often succeed on earth, only to fail in the only that really matters...in their relationship with You. We win when we properly prioritize the needs of our spirit, our family and horses ahead of our earthly goals and desires. We win when we look up into your eyes and can honestly proclaim "I did my best, Lord". God we pray that you lay your hand of protection upon the horses whos care you have entrusted to us. Let us realize the incredible blessing of having these marvelous creatures in our lives. Thank you for the opportunity of fellowship that they provide. Help us to be sensitive to their needs and aware of their physical and mental limitations. Remind us that they are not machines, but were created by you to be loved and cared for by us. Reveal to us their pain, confusion or soreness and help us to respond responsibly and in their best interest. Help us to take the time today to lay our hands upon their muscled shoulders and feel their gentle power... to look into their eyes and recognize their kind desire to please us....to run our hands down their fragile legs and realize how vulnerable they are to injury. Help us to forgive and understand them if they make a mistake today and remember that we have made many more than they have. If we see one of Your horses being mistreated, give us the courage to stand up for them in a way that they are not able to. Keep us from turning our heads and looking the other way. Lord, may we never leave the arena without praising our horses for his efforts with a loving stroke of his neck...and perhaps, a treat. Amen <3

The Hard Adventure

Went to caley and santas farm for the afternoon to talk and have tea together. It was good to sit and talk with them. After awhile we all went outside and just enjoyed the fresh air and sun...as we were doing that we see the goats got out and so we had to chase them all back in like 5x and repeat...lol it was funny and tiring. The day went very well,dad and caley went to get firewood mom helped in the kitchen and garden. staci and I helped with the goats and make honey bee cages. It was great! After the long beautiful good day,Santa and mom went to the garden to pick fresh veggies and potatos to make for dinner...dinner was delicious!! It was SO stormy outside and muggy...the thunder And lightning was crazy. So we waitd until the storm went down to go back to the apartment. When we arrive back to our place,i for some reason started feeling sick to my stomach And my heart aching and I jut wanted to cry...I don't know what got me but I just felt like wraping up in a ball and crying. So I went and laid down and just thought about home back in the US and I was thinking of my dog and horse. It's hard and it hurts being away from them,I've never been so far away and even for along period of time away from my baby's. I just started tearing up wishing I was home with them already. :"( I just ach knowing that there not right here beside me like I'm use to. I just don't know how I'll EVER live without my animals. There EVERYRHING to me and they always will be. :"( 

My heart just melted <\3

7/12/2012 ROMĀNS<3 This week,this day, is a rememberable week/day I WILL NEVER EVER IN MY LIFE FORGET. Met the most sweetest loving boy named,Romāns! Sweetest things ever! He is an orphan and when I was told that,my heart just sank with sadness. ="( this boy is not just a boy,hes a boy that is hungry for love AMD more. He told me," you don't leave me." and that made me just want to tear up badly. :( I will always remember my sweet little Romāns<3 

My little man,Romāns

MY LITTLE MAN,ROMĀNS<3 WOW...didn't know this week of VBS would really touch me in a way I've never felt before. Knowing your doing the lords work and helping the people and kids there just made me feel like a person that is gonna be more useful in life. The part that made me feel more melted in is being with my kids that were attatched to me that week. I felt so blessed to be there and be with them. My main kid I was so bonded with was,Romāns. Oh my word,can't even express my words for him,he was the sweetest,cutest,most loving little boy I could have EVER met! Romāns is a little boy that I LOVE SO STINKEN MUCH and that I'll NEVER EVER forget. I was telling my mom that when I turn 18 he's mine and im gonna adopt him but,then I was like," I want to be married and then I'll adopt because the child deserves a Godly loving father...and thts where I would get to call us family! Because if i were to adopt and have know father,that that wouldnt be fair to the child,he deserves an actual FAMILY! I guess me thinking of taking him when I turn 18 was me just being desperate to see him again and being jealous if someone else adopts him but you know what,that child deserve SO much care and love AMD if he were to get adopted,that would be everything to him and even me cause I'd know he's bein loved like he deserves. This goes to all the orphans. I love them all....but there was just a sweet little connection with me and Romāns. I love him SO MUCH! AMD wont EVER forget my sweet little man<3

TRUE FRIENDSHIP CAN'T BE BROKEN

TRUE FRIENDSHIP CAN'T BE BROKEN<3 July 4th,I received 3 letters from friends..yes I felt SO loved.lol well I read my best friend Taylor's letter and I just wanted to tear up,she's SO sweet and really Cares for me and our relationship. She's literally a gift from God to me..I've NEVER had a friend that I can trust SO much...the past 3 years I've had trouble trusting people due to heart breaks,lies and always being a second option to them. I believe God had me do OHSET for a reason and me meeting Taylor was one of the main reasons. God knows my life and the hard struggles I've been through and he knows I haven't had good trustworthy friend in along time. I was scared to death to even say I have friends because in my head I was thinking to myself,"there probably not friends,that's just what I wish I can call them." I haven't had a true trustworthy friend inforever and I always wanted to know why that is...am I doing something wrong to not have friends? Am I not good enough? I always ask God why is it me that has to suffer being hurt by people for NO REASON at all. How can I change so I can have friends?....NO I'm not gonna change for other people. That's not who God made me and that would just make me look bad down the road and I'd loose the friends that did except me for who I am and I NEVER would want that. If they don't except me for who I am,then there not who I should be with or around. Being myself makes me feel good about myself. Ya knowing you had friends that you "THOUGHT" we're friends is hard to know that they weren't really your friends,there were just using me or using me as a second option and that hurts SO bad to know that's been happening to me for who knows how long. Anyways,back to the letter and Taylor. So as I read that letter from her,I just got goose bumps and wanted to start crying cause I now realize,I have a friend that will ALWAYS be here for me and won't leave me. And I definitely believe it! She wrote the sweetest things to me and I just didn't know what to say except....PLEASE DON'T EVER LEAVE ME!! Because I've never had a friend like her in ALONG time and now that I have one is so refreshing. I love Tay so much and will always be a sister to her that she doesn't have..I told her,"NO MATTER what,your stuck with me cause we our family and family NEVER EVER aparts." and she totally agreed! People can say,"oh don't say that cause what "IF" something happens?" NO,nothing will and that's what I believe and won't EVER think negative on anything that has to do with our friendship. She's literally a gift from God. I can't even tell you!<3 here's what I wrote to her after I recieved her letter: Well I finally got my letter from my BESTEST friend/sister yesterday and I can't even tell you how truly grateful I am to have a friend like Taylor,she's the sweetest most caring friend/sister I could even ask for. To me friendship is huge and I've had hard times when it comes to friends and for the past like 3 years I've been having that issues when it comes to anyone because I got stabbed in the back by my "SO CALLED FRIENDS" but Taylor is someone I can trust with all my heart and I will always know she's not a friend that will just use me or even look at me as a second option. Thank you Taylor SO much for being a great friend,your Deffinatley my BEST friend/sister AMD no on will take that away EVER!! I love you so much Sis♥ thanks for always being there for me when I need someone to talk to AMD thank you for not EVER leaving our friendship. YOUR THE BEST SIS and this is what Tay said." Awwwww!!!!(: im so glade you got my letter(: & ill always be here for ya are friendship is amazing! An id never do anything to mess it up . Your my sister/bestfriend ♥ & ill always be here for you no matter what ill drop anything for you when you need help or a shoulder to lean on. Jenna i couldn't ask for a more most wonderful friend in the world! Ive never had a friend like you your truly one of a kind!! One thats not gonna just drop are friendship. & wont judge me on my Goofiness;) lol an on how i act! I can trust you with ANYTHING An i love that about you! i love you sis/bestfriend Oh so much!! Lol O an hurry your butt up an come home cause i freaking MISS YOU!!!!! This friendship is SO REAL! And won't EVER forget it. She's everything to me and I love Tay to death and I'm so glad I can be that best friend/sister to her. I love you Tay,your such a great friend I could EVER ask for. ***HUGS*** Thank you God for putting her in my life and me in hers. <3

Helpful Work

Hey everyone,I'm trying to keep y'all posted on what's going on. The past two days we did our first work projects,which was weeding and getting things cleared out. As we were working,the people here would just watch us and wonder why we all were doing what we were doing,which was weeding.LOL....helping these people makes me feel so good inside and makes me want to just continue with the help we have been doing for them. These people don't help each other "EVER"....So us doing work for them,they think we are "FREAKS" is what we've been told,but they also appreciate it tons. We are so greatful to be able to help these people. =)

We made it!!!

Made it to Latvia safe! Was very nervous at first to enter but,everything went great! I can say it sure is different here. Went to bed at 7:30pm and woke up at 2:30am thinking it was really 9am.lol jet lag is real hard.lol :)

I'm a thinker

6/4/2012 6:56am Woke up this morning at 6:30am to get ready for the drive to Seattle. While I was awake I was just thinking to myself,"WOW,this is it,this is the day that we leave to Latvia,if feels so unreal." I didn't really know what else to think about except for the departure from America and be gone for three months. It's gonna be super hard for me to leave but,it's all happening for a reason and God has the special plan planned. God is great! <3

Family gather

6/3/2012




Had an amazing time at my sister's Reciatal. She did so amazing and so proud how far she's come,I love you sister! After the dance Recital, We all as in(older siblings) came home and celebrated my dad and mom's Birthday. That was lots of fun. The hardest part of course is saying our "Goodbyes",Of course I just cried and couldnt keep myself together. And letting my dog go was very upsetting,because she's cant stand not having me around and I get so depressed without her or even my horse but,I know God has us doing this for a reason and Im SO blessed to go on this Journey that Our Father in Heaven has provided for us. Im SO excited to see what God has instore for me and my family. its just exciting! Dear amazing Father God,you have blessed this family with the privalledge of going on this trip to Latvia and we are so full of Laughter and Excitment,thank you father for leading us to do this,without you I dont think we would be going on this trip, I love you Lord, in Jesus name, AMEN! <3

Saying Goodbye to My Girl

My Girl

You're the one that keeps me going

You're my world

And some people may ask, "How does that horse put up with her?"